"I want to see you one more time"

I miss my nonno (grandpa) and I had a really close relationship with him. I was his most favourite grandson and I remember all the good times we had together. He was the most beautiful human being I have ever known on earth. In my heart, he will always be my hero and I love him the most, much more than my mum. My parents separated when I was a teenager and I hated my dad because of all the things he did to mum, my brother and me. As much as I hated my dad a lot, I kept my relationship with my nonno, and I visited him a couple of times a week.

I find it hard to accept that my nonno is no longer here. He passed away recently, and I didn’t get to say my final goodbye to him because no one had told me that he was in the hospital. The night before he passed away on Wednesday morning, everyone in the family had a chance to see him at the hospital and I was the only who wasn’t there. I only received a text message from my eldest brother a couple of hours after my nonno’s passing, and I was in total shock. I remember I was chatting with him on Monday in his home and then to be told on Wednesday that he was gone, I didn’t know what to think and say to be honest.

I hated that no one had told me about him being admitted into the hospital and that his situation was not positive. The most important person in my world died and I didn’t get to see and say my final goodbye to him. I cannot accept what has happened, and I don’t know how to get over this. My heart is burning, and I am in a lot of emotional pain. I feel like I really need proper closure to this situation, but I don’t know if I would ever get that. He’s gone and I miss him so much.

Every time I look at the necklace he gave to me, I feel very emotional and it’s like he is right there next to me. I want him back… please come back, nonno… I want to see you one more time and tell you just how much I love you.